In The Presence of Purpose
How simple it can be.
Dear reader,
It’s been almost one month exactly since I wrote something here. March has been the darkest of my winter so I am pretty thankful to have longer days as we head into April. It’s been hard to write what I mean to say. It’s been hard trying to put the words down on paper or computer — after leaving my mind and my lips.
A lot has happen within me these last few weeks. Changes to my inner world that’s left me shook — unable to fully process how or what things actually feel like these days. What I have gathered so far is that, the person writing this today, has not been the person who has wrote here before. She’s been uncomfortable because although she’s new her environment is not. She recognizes where she is as the things she left behind, left alone, for good, yet here she is still in it, even though — she’s new.
She is me of course. And instead of being frustrated I have patience now. I understand that apart of my purpose is to just let things go — especially things outside of my control. Let them flee — so my mind can be worry free.
To be worry free is to leave no room for doubt, because without my worries, I know everything is going to work out.
I’ve freed myself from my own mental prison — I’ve been in denial of the part I played in holding myself back. Let me rephrase that, I’ve been in denial that I’ve probably been the only thing holding myself back. I use to think accountability came easy to me and a part of myself wants me to acknowledge that it truly does, but in the face of climbing the biggest mountain so far, my life has ever seen — in order to get over the mountain of discourage, fear, shame and guilt, I had to face the monster I created —
MY MIND SET.
I wish I could say more about what’s actually new, but all I can recognize so far is that my world doesn’t look the same, though not a single thing on the outside has changed. This is the first time I ever explored my inner world. The first time I’m realizing where change even happens in the first place — on the inside.
It’s fascinating yet you feel crazy as it’s such a personal experience you can only hope someone else can relate.
Exploring the depths of my soul is where I am.
Understanding purpose and how simple it can be.
Understanding how your purpose can be to rest.
or to maintain ease.
Understand how purpose isn’t about defining your life
but how you receive each moment.
Diana Gordon’s - Once My Friend has been getting me through this deep inner transformation. Sharing here in case anyone else needs this listen.
What does purpose mean to you and have you found it yet?
How present are you with your purpose these days?
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Much Love!
I am loving this for you. Going through similar things. Have an amazing journey and be kind to yourself along the way 🩶💜⭐️ isn’t it funny once things change you really can’t go back to the way things were! It’s scary but beautiful!
My purpose is the thing that every person new and old in my life notices in me. I’m a motivator, connector, & community designer. I found a project I did senior yr of highschool and we had to imagine our future self and the dream job of organization I created was a community for teen women. I created my own magazine in my preteens. All things that our connected to my purpose. I am currently very present to my purpose. From the job I do, the place I live, and my creations - they all have a cord to my purpose.